EMPTINESS

It is totally out of my ability to phrase it.
Yet, I am certain that I do not possess consciousness by now.
I feel left out.
I feel lost.
I feel ignored.
I feel desperate.
In fact, I feel empty.

I could not help but keep committing all the nonsenses.
Well... It is totally a shame to admit this.
My life is being messed up.
My hopes are being destroyed.
My trust is being abolished.
Who causes all these?
Yea, nobody else... but it's me.

Now that, there are people who label me 'fool'.
I devoted my precious time to them out of my packed daily routine even knowing that they would not even give me a hoot.
I always cheered them up despite their negligence whenever I was in need of them.
I always gave them a pep talk though I am all alone whenever I deadly needed a shoulder to cry on!

Yes, I am silly.
I was always at their beck and call.
I was always the person they look for whenever they were in trouble.
Now that, I am here all alone without any of them.
I will never question them if they had ever put themselves in my shoes.
No, I will not beg anyone of them to be by my side again.
I am really sick of their faked smiles.
Oh God... Thank you for sparing me strength to survive all by myself.

I know that it is very childish to feel this way.
Yet, I must try to adapt to this solitude.
Emptiness is not my identity.
This is just a transient stain on me, which will fade away so soon.

Kyel Kywai Chain