Can you hear my heart?

This is the ongoing drama I am watching currently. Up to episode 16 out of 30 was already aired. It is really an interesting drama with a blend of character portrayals and a complicated plot. Especially, the actor is so handsome woehoehoe <3 =P

Specifically, I am in love with the theme song (by ZiA), which is the only song I have been replaying in my music library since several days ago. On the train, in the bus, in the library, while walking, while working, etc.... this is the only song I am crazy about. The english-subbed video below is taken from youtube. Here you go! :D

Kyel Kywai Chain

[Untitled]

I don't have a heart to look into his eyes and say "Look, Mike, I can't love you". All I see is his light-blue, innocent eyes, begging me. I was all he had for the past ten years, and we had been so close, as if we were siblings. Now that, when he suddenly moved his lips to tell me that he loved me, I could feel my head was spinning. I felt a heavy thud in my heart, that kept telling me, "you're in deep trouble."

I have no idea how Mike could let those three words slip from his lips even though he knew that I am attached to Bob. Bob had been my Prince Charming for the past three months, and since then, I could see Mike's sad eyes. Suppressing my fear that Mike could possibly fall for me, I shook my head and kept mumbling "Oh, he couldn't be, he couldn't do that to me".

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ငယ္နာမည္မ်ား

ဟုတ္က့ဲ။ က်ေနာ့ အႏွစ္ ၂၀ တာ တစ္ေလွ်ာက္လုံး နာမည္ေတြ အမ်ားႀကီး ရွိခ့ဲပါတယ္။ ငယ္နာမည္ေတြ လို႕ပဲ ေခၚႀကပါစို႕။ က်ေနာ့ကို နံမည္အျပည့္ ေခၚတ့ဲလူ (ခင္သူေတြထဲမွာ) အေတာ္ နည္းပါတယ္။ က်ေနာ့ နာမည္ ၃လုံးထဲမွာ ေရွ႕ဆုံးက “ပြင့္” ကို ဆရာမ ေတြက ေခၚပါတယ္။ ေနာက္ဆုံးက “ခ်ိဳ”ကိုေတာ့ သူငယ္ခ်င္းေတြက ပုံအမ်ိဳးမ်ိဳး ဖ်က္ျပီး ေခၚႀကပါတယ္။ အလယ္တစ္လုံး “ရည္” ကေတာ့ နည္းနည္း အျငိမ္းစားရပါတယ္။ ဟီး။

က်ေနာ္ ရန္ကုန္မွာ သူငယ္တန္း မတက္ခင္ နယ္မွာ ေနပါတယ္။ (ပဲခူးတိုင္း၊ သာယာ၀တီထဲက သုံးဆယ္ျမိဳ႕မွာပါ။) နယ္က လူႀကီးေတြက က်ေနာ့္ကို “ထန္းလ်က္ခဲ” လို႕ေခၚပါတယ္။ ဘာလို႕ဆို ထန္းလ်က္ခဲက ခ်ိဳလြန္းလို႕တ့ဲ။ ရန္ကုန္မွာ မူလတန္းအရြယ္ ေက်ာင္းတက္ေတာ့ ဘယ္လိုေခၚႀကလဲ ေသခ်ာမမွတ္မိေတာ့ပါဘူး။

အဲ.. ၅တန္းေလာက္က စလို႕ မွတ္မိပါတယ္။ အစုံပါပဲ။ က်ေနာ့ အိမ္နံမည္က “ခ်ိဳခ်ိဳ” ပါ။ အိမ္ကို လာလာေဆာ့ေနက် သူငယ္ခ်င္းေတြက ေက်ာင္းမွာလည္း အ့ဲလိုပဲ လိုက္ေခၚပါတယ္။ ေခၚရင္းေခၚရင္းနဲ႕ “ငခ်ိဳ” ျဖစ္သြားေရာ။ တစ္တန္းလုံးက သူငယ္ခ်င္းေတြ အကုန္၀ိုင္းေခၚႀကတာပါ။ နာမည္ရင္းကို ေပ်ာက္ေရာ။ မွတ္မိပါေသးတယ္။ အ့ဲတုန္းက က်က္ရတ့ဲ ျမန္မာ့သမိုင္းမွာ ပုဂံဗိုလ္ခ်ိဳ ဆိုတ့ဲ (စစ္သူႀကီးလား၊ ေစာ္ဘြားလားေတာ့ မသိပါဘူး) ပုဂိၢဳလ္ႀကီးအေႀကာင္း ပါပါတယ္။ ေဟာ.. အ့ဲအခ်ိန္ကစ က်ေနာ့ နာမည္လည္း “ဗိုလ္ခ်ိဳ” ျဖစ္တာပါပဲ။

ေနာက္ေတာ့ သမိုင္းမွာ အေနာ္ရထာ လက္ထက္က ပုဂံေခတ္ အရည္းႀကီးေတြ အေႀကာင္း သင္ရပါတယ္။ ျဖစ္ခ်င္ေတာ့ အ့ဲဒီေန႕က ဆရာမ အတန္းထဲမွာ စာေမးမယ္ဆိုျပီး နာမည္ေခၚလိုက္ေတာ့ ေဟာဒီက က်ေနာ္ ကံထူးရွင္မဲေပါက္ပါတယ္။ ထုံးစံအတိုင္း စာကလည္း မရပါဘူး။ အ့ဲဒါနဲ႕ သမိုင္းတစ္ခ်ိန္လုံး မတ္တတ္ရပ္ ဒဏ္ေပးခံထိပါတယ္။ အ့ဲေန႕ခ်က္ခ်င္းပဲ က်ေနာ့္ နံမည္လည္း “အရည္းႀကီး” တြင္သြားပါတယ္ (က်ေနာ္နံမည္ အလယ္တစ္လုံး “ရည္” နဲ႕ ဆင္လို႕တ့ဲေလ.. ငါေနာ္။)

၆တန္းက်ေတာ့ အတန္းေခါင္းေဆာင္ လုပ္ရပါတယ္ (အ့ဲတုန္းက မတည့္တ့ဲ ေဘာ္ဒါတစ္ဖြဲ႕လုံးက ဆရာမကို ၀ိုင္းေထာင္တာ က်ေနာ္ ေခါင္းေဆာင္ လုပ္လိုက္ရတယ္။ ဟြန္း ႀကည့္လို႕ကိုမရဘူး ခ်ီးထုပ္ေတြ။ သည္းခံပါ ခမ်ာ။) အ့ဲက်ေတာ့ ေမာ္နီတာမို႕လို႕ “ေမာ္ႀကီး ေမာ္ႀကီး” ေခၚရာကေန “ခ်ိဳႀကီး” တ့ဲ.. ျဖစ္သြားႀကျပန္ေရာ။ က်ဴရွင္က တီခ်ယ္ကေတာ့ တစ္မ်ိဳး။ “ပြင့္ေလး” တ့ဲ။ အ့ဲအခ်ိန္တုန္းက သရုပ္ေဆာင္ ပြင့္ ေႀကာ္ျငာေတြမွာ စပါတ့ဲ အခ်ိန္ပါ။ က်ဴရွင္မွာ တီခ်ယ္ အ့ဲနံမည္ေခၚတိုင္း သူငယ္ခ်င္းေတြ ၀ိုင္းဟားႀကပါတယ္။

၇တန္းက်ေတာ့ က်ေနာ္ သူငယ္ခ်င္းတစ္ေယာက္နဲ႕ အရမ္းတြဲျဖစ္ပါတယ္။ က်ေနာ္တို႕ ၂ေယာက္လုံးက သြားလည္းတူတူ၊ စားလည္းတူတူ၊ ေနာက္ဆုံး အိမ္သာသြားေတာင္ တူတူသြားႀကတာ။ အ့ဲေလာက္ထိ ခ်စ္ႀကတာ ဟီးဟီး။ အ့ဲေကာင္မေလးကလည္း အတန္းထဲမွာ ဗရုတ္ဆိုေတာ့ က်ေနာ္တို႕ ၂ေယာက္ကို သမုတ္ႀကျပန္ပါတယ္။ “ငပိရည္ နဲ႕ တို႕စရာ” တ့ဲ (က်ေနာ္က တို႕စရာ ပါ။)

၈တန္း က်ေနာ့္ ေမြးေန႕တစ္ရက္ေပါ့။ ၁၂လမ္းက ေဒၚခ်ိဳ မုန္႕ဟင္းခါးဆိုင္မွာ ေဘာ္ဒါေတြကို မုန္႕လိုက္ေကၽြးရာကေနျပီး “ေဒၚခ်ိဳ” နာမည္ တြင္သြားျပန္ပါတယ္။ မွတ္မိပါေသးတယ္။ ၈တန္းတုန္းက ေက်ာင္းက ဘင္ခရာအဖြဲ႕မွာ ပါေတာ့ အဖြဲ႕ထဲက အစ္မႀကီးေတြပါ လိုက္ေခၚႀကတာ “ေဒၚခ်ိဳ” တ့ဲ။

၉တန္းက်ေတာ့ ခ်ိဳျပံဳး သီခ်င္းေတြ ပါတ့ဲ အယ္လ္ဘမ္ တစ္ေခြထြက္ပါတယ္။ ႀကားဖူးလားေတာ့ မသိပါဘူး။ အ့ဲထဲက နာမည္ႀကီးတ့ဲ သီခ်င္းတစ္ပုဒ္က “ဘုိင္စကုပ္ထဲက မခ်ိဳ၊ သီခ်င္းေတြဆိုတ့ဲ မခ်ိဳ၊ မခ်ိဳ~~~~” တ့ဲ။ ေက်ာင္းက Physics ဆရာမကလည္း အ့ဲသီခ်င္း အျမဲဆိုပါတယ္။ အ့ဲကစလို႕ တြင္သြားျပန္တာ “မ,ခ်ိဳ” တ့ဲေလ။

၁၀တန္းမွာ လူက ပိုျပီး ေယာက္ကလ်ာ ပုံေပါက္လာပါတယ္ (ေဘာ္ေဘာ္ေတြက ေျပာတာပဲ)။ ၈တန္းေလာက္ထိ ထားတ့ဲ ဆံပင္ရွည္ကို ဘင္ခရာပါဖို႕ ျဖတ္ပစ္လိုက္လို႕ပါ (ေက်ာင္းမွာ ဘင္ခရာအဖြဲ႕၀င္ခ်င္ရင္ ဆံပင္အတိုပဲ ထားရပါတယ္။ အင္မတန္ ႀကိဳက္တ့ဲ ဆံပင္အရွည္ကို ျဖတ္ေလာက္တ့ဲအထိ ဘင္ခရာကို ရူးခ့ဲတာပါ။) အ့ဲဒါနဲ႕ပဲ “နင္က မခ်ိဳ နံမည္နဲ႕ မလိုက္ဘူး။ ေမာင္ခ်ိဳ လို႕ ေခၚမယ္တ့ဲ” ျဖစ္ႀကျပန္ေရာ။ အ့ဲ “ေမာင္ခ်ိဳ” နာမည္ကေန အဆင့္ဆင့္ေျပာင္းသြားလိုက္တာ ခင္သူမင္သူ တစ္ခ်ိဳ႕က “ကိုခ်ိဳ” သို႕မဟုတ္ “ကိုႀကီးခ်ိဳ” လို႕ေခၚႀကပါတယ္။ ေအာ္... လွလိုက္ႀကတ့ဲ နံမည္ေတြ။ =D

ေဟာ .. အခု ဒီမွာက်ေတာ့ ေက်ာင္းမွာ ေခၚႀကတာ “မိခ်ိဳ” တ့ဲ။ အ့ဲနာမည္ကေတာ့ ေက်ာင္းက Project တစ္ခုနဲ႕ ေထာက္ႀကံ႕ျမိဳ႕နယ္၊ ႏြယ္ေခြေက်းရြာက မိဘမ့ဲ ႏြမ္းပါးတဲ့ ကေလးေလးေတြကို ၁၄ရက္ႀကာ စာသြားသင္ေပးရတုန္းက ကိုယ့္ကိုယ္ကို ေပးထားတ့ဲ နံမည္ပါ။ ကေလးေတြနဲ႕ မိတ္ဆက္ခိုင္းေတာ့ သူတို႕လို ရြာဆန္ဆန္ နံမည္ေလးေတြနဲ႕ ဆင္တူသြားေအာင္လို႕ စဥ္းစားျပီး လႊတ္ခနဲ ေျပာလိုက္မိတာ၊ အခုထိ ေက်ာင္းမွာ တြင္သြားပါေရာ။ ကေလးေတြ ေခၚတာက “မမမိခ်ိဳ” တ့ဲ။ =D

က်ေနာ္ ေသခ်ာမမွတ္မိေတာ့တ့ဲ နံမည္ေတြလည္း ရွိပါေသးတယ္။ တစ္ခါတေလ ေတာ့လည္း ေက်ာင္းမွာ ၀ုန္းဒိုင္းႀကဲ ဗရုတ္က်ခ့ဲတာေတြ သတိရမိပါေသးတယ္။ လသာ၂မွာ အမွတ္တရေတြ အမ်ားႀကီးေပါ့။ ၅တန္းတုန္းက အကက်င့္တ့ဲအေဆာင္ အေပၚဆုံးထပ္ (မဖဲ၀ါ ညတိုင္း လာလာတီးတယ္ဆိုျပီး နံမည္ႀကီးတ့ဲ စႏၵရားႀကီး ရွိတ့ဲအထပ္ေပါ့) မွာ ကုလားမစီးနင္းတန္းေဆာ့ျပီးခုန္ႀကတာ ေအာက္ထပ္က ဆရာမက အေပၚတက္လာျပီး ဆူပါတယ္။ ေအာက္ထပ္မွာ သဲေတြက်လို႕တ့ဲ ဟီးဟီး =D ။

ခုလက္ရွိနံမည္ “မိခ်ိဳ” လည္း ဘယ္ေတာ့ ေျပာင္းဦးမလဲ မသိပါဘူး။ =D

ႀကယ္ေႀကြခ်ိန္

ကဆုန္လျပည့္ေန႕

It is a public holiday in Singapore today. They call it Vesak Day (Buddha's birthday). In Myanmar, it is "Full Moon Day of Kason" (ကဆုန္လျပည့္ေန႕). Many other Asian countries, such as Nepal, Sri Lanka, Vietnam, Thailand, Cambodia, Laos, Malaysia and Indonesia, celebrate this auspicious day, which Buddhists pay high esteem to apparently. (Reference: Vesākha)

Though I am just a traditional Buddhist, my paternal grandparents are very religious and devoted ones. Although they come from the mainland of China during war (I am not sure which war it was... although my grandpa have always told me about it), they take auspicious days regarding with Buddha in Myanmar seriously. They always keep sabbath, do meditation, and good deeds in pagodas, especially Shwedagon Pagoda.

Though I used to accompany them to Shwedagon, I have never kept sabbath with them till now (for skipping dinner is a pain for me.. heehee =D). I still remember we ate Myanmar food (အေႀကာ္စုံသုပ္၊ မုန္႕တီသုပ္၊ ဘိန္းမုန္႕, etc) on the way back. Sometimes, they give some pocket-money to my little brother and me. I still recall how I peeled apples for them if they gave me pocket-money. :D Don't take me wrong. I am always a good grandaughter no matter what :P.

So, this morning, I miss my family when I realized that it's one of the days we've used to go to Shwedagon together. I am sure they will still go there today, in my parents' and little brother's accompaniment. =)

As for me, I'll rot in my small room reading books and watching some dramas. What a boring day though..

Have a nice day! =B

Kyel Kywai Chain

1 litre of tears

I started watching this drama two days ago. It is a Japanese drama: 1 litre of tears. It was so tragic that I couldn't help shedding tears all the way. And, it was so addicting that I could finish all 11 episodes in two days.. woosh! :O Also, it could offer me such a great inspiration till the end.

The drama is about a 15-year-old high school girl, Aya-chan, suffering from an incurable disease called "spinocerebellar ataxia". It is a progressive degenerative disease that makes the victim unable to walk properly and stand stably. Gradually, the victim will encounter difficulties with speech, eye movements, hand movements, etc. All the basic daily life performances will become difficult for him/her. Eventually, he/she will never wake up from deep sleep.

And so, although Aya-chan learnt about her disease, she did not give up her life. She always encouraged herself to live on with the support of her family. After she had left her school due to her sluggish body conditions, she continued her studies in a school for the disabled and graduated from there. She wrote many diaries all along the way and let them published to let all those people suffering from the same disease feel accompanied, and encourage them not to surrender.

The drama is based on a true story. The characters and plots are imaginative, though. It did make me feel blessed to be able to stay healthy like this and do whatever we want in our daily lives. We should realize how blessed we are to be able to move freely, communicate well, and do all the chores and basic things in daily life. Upon realizing this, we shouldn't be greedy and complaining about anything anymore, should we?

When Aya-chan's goodbye came, I couldn't help sobbing although I knew this would not a happy ending from the very start. I think I cried more than 1 litre of tears. !_! (1 bucket of tears, perhaps, =D)

Below is the theme song of the drama, taken from youtube. It flashes some of the scenes from the drama. And if you want to watch this, be reminded to keep more tissue boxes around you, guaranteed you will cry. Trust me, it's worth watching after all. =)




MAY GOD BLESS YOU!

Kyel Kywai Chain

ငိုက္

ေရွာခနဲ ေရွာခနဲ စကၠန္႕ေတြေပ်ာက္
ေငါက္ခနဲ ေငါက္ခနဲ လည္တိုင္ေတြေထာက္

ဆတ္ခနဲ ဆတ္ခနဲ ဦးလည္ထြက္သြားခ်ိန္
ျဖတ္ခနဲ ျဖတ္ခနဲ ပြင့္လာတတ္တ့ဲ ရီေ၀မ်က္၀န္းအိမ္

၀ွါးခနဲ ၀ွါးခနဲ ႏႈတ္ခမ္းသားေတြ ဆန္႕ေစ
ေပါက္ခနဲ ေပါက္ခနဲ မ်က္ရည္ေတြ ျပာေ၀

ရႊတ္ခနဲ ရႊတ္ခနဲ ရွဴသြင္းရတ့ဲ ႏွာရည္
ေခါခနဲ ေခါခနဲ ေဟာက္ထုတ္ရတ့ဲ တစ္ခါတေလ

ေအာ္...
ပင္ပန္းလွပါတကား။
(အစမွ ျပန္ဖတ္ပါ။)

(ေလွာင္ေနျခင္း မဟုတ္ပါ။ ေျပာင္ေနျခင္းလည္း မဟုတ္ပါ။ MRT ေပၚ ငိုက္ေနသူတစ္ဦးအား ျမင္ေယာင္မိသျဖင့္သာ.....)

မရီနဲ႕ေနာ္။ =P

ႀကယ္ေႀကြခ်ိန္

A little thought

Are you currently in pursuit of something you think is precious or essential to you?

Or..

Have you ever been in this situation in the past? And, finally, when you achieved what you have been longing for a long time, you didn't even feel its existence at all! Have you?

Ask this question to yourself: "What are we after? And, why are we after?"

Yes, we have chosen this path on our own. No doubt, the ones who have to suffer are also ourselves. We know that very well. Yet, we always want to know what our alternatives are.

We, human beings, are in pursuit of our own happiness in life. We hope for the best in everything we did, we do or will do. But, but, when we actually get what we want (the best of the best!), we have already become indifferent at all about it. Why does its existence have to evaporate? Why does it have to be unexciting?

I am feeling so right now, and am desperately in need of a truthful answer.

What are we after? And, why are we after?

And, how sure are we that this-and-this thing can make us feel blessed or happy forever?

Kyel Kywai Chain